Over the edge...

I cannot bear a sight of him. Not when he was in radius of 3 or even 2 meters around me; not when he was talking to somebody else; especially not when talking to him. What can I do??I'm clueless. I fought my way; really i did. I have thought of and acted on so many ways; the results however, always prove to be disappointing. Perhaps I didn't try hard enough, perhaps a part of me didn't even want it to end. It feels good. Those moments - when I foolishly believed things could go back to the way it was- though indescribably short, were extremely heartening. I curse myself for being so weak. I'm gonna try and keep on tryin'. I can't give up just yet. great life lies ahead of me. I must do something. I will love again- I believe so...I believe in my strength ...I believe in love.